Sometimes I asked myself...
Do I have a lot of silly baselines/principles that are redundant/outdated?
I can't.
I really cannot bring myself to join in gossips like that.
I cannot understand on the other hand also...
When she has been the victim of gossips before, how did she manage to do it on another person with no sense of guilt/shame; especially when I don't even see the person she gossips has done anything bad to her.
HOW CAN SHE BRING HERSELF IN DOING SO?
Everyday coming home is so tired, I need to clear my mind of what to make sure that I do not give any comments of what they have done/are doing, persistently reminding myself NOT to become like them, it is simply taxing adding unnecessary stress in the midst of other things that I have to settle.
I could only do so much.
I have stopped putting a good words for others, for whenever I do, ultimately the person would turn around gave me a bigger stab at the back.
It is just draining.
May be I am just too outdated.
Yet I know.
You can't live without such beings on Earth as well in order to know what is going on, but you know it well and well that who you can trust and who you shouldn't. NEVER EVER.
Still...
I cannot bring myself to stoop so low to gossip about others to gain acceptance.
It's beyond what I can accept myself to be doing.
I need a vent still.
