善緣也好，孽緣也罷，生命中總有一些人和事不到你控制。
祇不過在這樣的情況下再遇，是從來沒有預想到的。
也其實，如果可以，如果真的硬需要再連上，其實⋯⋯我寧可不是在這種情況下再聯繫。可是既然來了，我看我的選擇也不多，祇能舒心接受，看看它想走到哪裡⋯⋯
It happened way back in 2008.
It was a terrible time.
I was almost completely wrecked and she, is part of the reason.
Honestly, I have never ever thought of picking up contact with her again at all, one thing being I don't see the point of doing so, while on the other hand, it brings back a lot of unhappy memories.
Yet...
I have never expect to reunite in this manner.
For her to become "my client".
Life.
No matter how influential you once were, when it is this stage, there is no difference.
Hearing you talking about how you fell out with your then best friend, I am not surprised when I have went through the same thing as well.
Yes, no doubt I really don't wish to pick back the contact again, but seeing you in this state is DEFINITELY NOT what I wanted.
Over the past year, I have kinda figured that some people it is really better to leave them in memories, it will not only do good to me psychologically but for the other party as well. Keeping things going is SUCH A PAIN.
It hurts to carry on things. It hurts to ask for things to continue when it is not meant to be.
I used to always want to try.
Now?
I'd rather not.
I have never felt truly so carefree before.
After going through all the pain, all the sadness, all the tears...
After I let go of THAT-so-called-Man who claimed to be very powerful and knows all your plans but ended up all bullshit.
After I let go of things and decided to stop pursuing...
I really feel lighter and happier.
I am very scared to commit into anything at this point in life.
Being set free, brings me more joy and peace.
