Just seen Dr Soh.
He said the values are ok, and seems progressing ok, he asked for another blood test the next round so as to see my antibody level, if it is satisfactory he might want to stop my medicines again.
But he is kinda worried about my eyes, he said, it seems to be more and more bulging out and he was asking me what did the eye doctor said.
Well, what could she said when she was not even the one who saw me the last round, and she has stated it clear enough that the only way out is surgery which I am really not keen in it unless the condition deteriorates. Who wants to walk around with a scar at such an obvious place? I am still young you know.
Anyway, he tested and said if I don't see double vision it is fine. And he said my eyes can closed fully so it is still not as worrying. I told him I really don't know what to do, if I were to go for the surgery, what would it be after that?
Another plastic surgery?
-Sigh-
And the most consoling words that he said after hearing that, "even if you go for plastic surgery for the scar after that, there will still be a scar..."
(O.O)
Dr Soh, don't scare me like that leh...
(-_-).....
Well, he advice that it is better that I should let my eye doctor see and see what she says, and let him know if I am really going for surgery. The main worry is that when the eyes bulge out too much and I cannot close it in sleep, the cornea would dry up and will be damaged, then I won't be able to see...
And that strikes me...
Will there be a day whereby I can't see anymore?
He said the values are ok, and seems progressing ok, he asked for another blood test the next round so as to see my antibody level, if it is satisfactory he might want to stop my medicines again.
But he is kinda worried about my eyes, he said, it seems to be more and more bulging out and he was asking me what did the eye doctor said.
Well, what could she said when she was not even the one who saw me the last round, and she has stated it clear enough that the only way out is surgery which I am really not keen in it unless the condition deteriorates. Who wants to walk around with a scar at such an obvious place? I am still young you know.
Anyway, he tested and said if I don't see double vision it is fine. And he said my eyes can closed fully so it is still not as worrying. I told him I really don't know what to do, if I were to go for the surgery, what would it be after that?
Another plastic surgery?
-Sigh-
And the most consoling words that he said after hearing that, "even if you go for plastic surgery for the scar after that, there will still be a scar..."
(O.O)
Dr Soh, don't scare me like that leh...
(-_-).....
Well, he advice that it is better that I should let my eye doctor see and see what she says, and let him know if I am really going for surgery. The main worry is that when the eyes bulge out too much and I cannot close it in sleep, the cornea would dry up and will be damaged, then I won't be able to see...
And that strikes me...
Will there be a day whereby I can't see anymore?
If so who will be those who will choose to stay beside me?
....
(T.T)
I won't be able to work anymore...
I won't see anymore smiling faces...
I won't be able to see the world again...
My plan is still... Unless there is deterioriation, otherwise I would probably just be sitting on it at the moment, serious.
Anyway, I also told him, should I really fail this course again, I would be a good girl and heed his advice to go for RAI. He said when the thyroid stimulating antibody level is down, the eyes should not deterioriate further.
But I thought... Hypothyroid will also cause eyes bulging out?
Hmm.. Must remember to confirm with him again the next time when I see him again.
I just did a project on some hormonal disorder in pregnant woman, and I realized that the chances of a hyperthyroid mommy to give birth the a pre-term baby is kinda high (O.O) , and the mortality rate of the baby is high as well, which is part of the reason why I am considering RAI too.
I know my left eye vision is not very good because I find it difficult to see things when I cover my right eye but all along I have one eye that is a lil shortsighted but I cannot remember which one was it.
Well, will see how the next round.
Ran into Qing Ting after seeing Dr Soh, and subsequently ran into Sister Yeo, my new boss and then I ran into Karen (in fact after Karen I ran into Yani and Mei Xue don't know why I keep running into people today), and she was doing advance diploma in Oncology *Envy*, how I wish I could go for that. Yet may be there is really a difference between what you like and what you are capable of, may be Onco is really not for me no matter how much I like it.
....
(T.T)
I won't be able to work anymore...
I won't see anymore smiling faces...
I won't be able to see the world again...
My plan is still... Unless there is deterioriation, otherwise I would probably just be sitting on it at the moment, serious.
Anyway, I also told him, should I really fail this course again, I would be a good girl and heed his advice to go for RAI. He said when the thyroid stimulating antibody level is down, the eyes should not deterioriate further.
But I thought... Hypothyroid will also cause eyes bulging out?
Hmm.. Must remember to confirm with him again the next time when I see him again.
I just did a project on some hormonal disorder in pregnant woman, and I realized that the chances of a hyperthyroid mommy to give birth the a pre-term baby is kinda high (O.O) , and the mortality rate of the baby is high as well, which is part of the reason why I am considering RAI too.
I know my left eye vision is not very good because I find it difficult to see things when I cover my right eye but all along I have one eye that is a lil shortsighted but I cannot remember which one was it.
Well, will see how the next round.
Ran into Qing Ting after seeing Dr Soh, and subsequently ran into Sister Yeo, my new boss and then I ran into Karen (in fact after Karen I ran into Yani and Mei Xue don't know why I keep running into people today), and she was doing advance diploma in Oncology *Envy*, how I wish I could go for that. Yet may be there is really a difference between what you like and what you are capable of, may be Onco is really not for me no matter how much I like it.
I don't know.
Seriously, I have been asking myself, do I really really really really really like Onco that much? Or is it because I was "borned in" an Oncology Ward and subsequently worked in a partial oncology ward for 2 years that is why I am so keen in taking up Oncology as my career path? May be I really need time to adapt in ICU first and see if I wanted Oncology all these while not because I really love it but because I am used to it.
I wish I know the answer soon.
I wish I know the answer soon.
