Saturday, January 29, 2005
We Have a Roach Crisis HereDamn..
Wonder what is going on, there has been signs of roaches in the house. There was one last night which "stands" in the middle of the door out of the kitchen and refused to move until I break into tears and Papa woke up to catch it for me. According to Mommy this morning, there was another two found the night before, with one dead in the bathroom at about 12 plus am and another one found at 4.30 am and I just saw a mini one just now, lucky I brought the bottle of insecticide and put it outside the door of the bathroom, otherwise it would be another round of "roaches-chase".
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!
I am horrified, terrified, simplified...
Erm... Sorry, wrong word.
Ok, I am lame because I am traumatized by the fact that there is an unknown number of roaches in house. I am putting the insecticide at handy places so that when the roach appears, it won't dash to me AGAIN.
HELP ME.......
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [11:58 PM]
Friday, January 21, 2005
Born StubbornNo! No! No!
I am NOT GOING to see a doctor even though I cough till my ribs and sternum hurts and I cannot breathe I am N-O-T going to the doctor!
The drugs can do nothing but make me drowsy and sleepy all the time just like last year when I was down with cough and sore throat with block nose and I see the doctor 2 times faithfully taking medicine and still did not get well so I am NOT going to go through so much pain in taking the irritating bitter yucky medicines!
NO WAY!
I rather cough till death also REFUSE DOCTOR!
NO DOCTOR NO DOCTOR NO DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!
*Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough Cough *
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [1:34 AM]
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
A Word of ThanksI am very thankful now.
I know I am consider lucky that my friends are willing to give up so much for me, I know it, really.
Thank you Maria, my dear Nadiah Erniyanti, for always being there and let me bully, entertain me and yourself. Thanks for bearing with me for all my crap, really appreciate that.
Thank you Mac, my dearest dear dear, for being such a thoughtful friend who always puts me before her.
Thank you Eve, my girl girl, for always being the first one to be around for me when I need people by my side.
Thank you Manman, for the advice you gave and for the presence when I am blue and for being my best swimming partner.
Thank you Pei Xian, though we don't see each other as much nowadays, but you are always the one who will ask me how am I doing, how am I feeling when I am down.
Thank you for whoever up there for giving me nice and caring friends.
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By the way, as usual, the school SUCKS at arranging time table. Can't believe that when all of us are told that all lectures are CANCELLED and yet in the very super last minute when the lecture has started for like 10 minutes then somebody from somewhere got the news that lecture is on. Problem is, how to go for lecture without book??? Dumb right? Luckily Mac dashed back immediately to the lecture hall and she got her book in the locker, if not, DIE because according to Mac, this lecture is very difficult to comprehend even she don't understand when she listen to the lecture and has to clarify once again with the lecturer after the lecture. -Sian- My school forever like that one.
The best part is that after that lecture, they got the news that there is an additional lecture which is not reflect on the timetable at all. This is really to my limit and I just wrote a complain letter to my lecturer mentor about this whole thing. Dumb, imagine we sat there whole morning doing nothing leh! There is simply too many tour guides and too little visitors in the morning *heard that they are under-staffed in the afternoon* See! really wonder who is the one who made all these arrangement! The craziest part of all is that, I just had a lecture on management today telling us how important it is to allocate the appropriate amount of manpower and there they give me this crap, how do they convince us? Contradicting right???
Grr...
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [8:41 PM]
Happy Birthday Manman~Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to Manman,
Happy Birthday to you!
Girl~ Happy 24th birthday!
A year older liaoz.. Heh.. *Evil gRin*.. Glad that I can still claim myself as 23 while you have to say that you are 24. Fwahahahaha... *Yeah I know what ya gonna say... "meanie" right? Yeah, that's me, Meanie Fione =P*
I don't think you need me to tell you again thank you for being around always when I need advice right? Heh... Your presence is appreciated and hope you have a wonderful year ahead~!
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Anyway, don't mind I blog something below huh?
School has started for me. Aye yo~ I think I am far too stress out by the IMH placement, ok, perhaps not only me because Maria said the same thing too, it seems that we have picked up habits from clients inside there. Like me, I just keep yakking non-stop and I think I have irritated lots of people, even my best friend Mac. Sorry girl~ I don't mean to be harsh to you, perhaps I am just not in the right mood, please don't take it too seriously and get affected by all those words. Sometimes I don't mean to talk in that tone but it came out like that, I will try to hold my tongue ok?
Maria, you better stop rubbing your hands before I suggest to Mac that we will start to fine you for that since you all fine me for drawing circles on surfaces. *Grinz*
Quite a stressful term, cuz only 7 weeks in school and there are so much things to do! So far am given one debate which we are going to make it an "advance role play" *Wink~you know what I mean.* and another presentation which takes up 30 percent of the whole module. There are 3 modules and 10 books to finish not to mention those materials and books we have to read. Sick! The school is FOREVER so AMBITIOUS! Always stuff in things which they don't even have time to teach and end up lecturer would say, "Please go and read up on your own." Then what's the point of paying school fees to get the lecturers to teach?
Anyway, it's open house tomorrow and school is suspended for all final year students till Thursday *Cuz Friday is a public holiday* so that we can go and help out.
One VERY BIG question mark on my head, "Why are they suspending our lessons and not the year 2s when we don't even have the time to finish covering for the lectures?" LAME SCHOOL~
Sian, better go and rest now cuz tomorrow have to bring "duckies" to tour around the school.
(= =i)
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [1:44 AM]
Sunday, January 16, 2005
TomorrowTomorrow will be the beginning of a new term and my final term in school, kinda reluctant to start school because this would mean that I am walking towards the end of school life! -Sigh-
Anyway, good luck to all~ Let's hope that we all are going to have a wonderful and peaceful term~ =)
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [6:49 PM]
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
IMH Postings Part 2Something happened in the ward today which makes me come to realise that IMH is not a place for me. Quite traumatized and feel quite drained. *Sigh* Never mind, no matter what, I will move on.
I know I should not say this, but... I am just glad that this postings is only for 2 weeks. Not that I don't care about patients, perhaps I am just not experienced enough which makes me keep feeling that I am not doing it in a very good way, a little dishearted though.
*Wipe Wipe Wipe*
Let's forget about what happened. I hope I can do it man~
Looking forward to school.
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [10:56 PM]
Friday, January 07, 2005
Posting@IMHWhat is your impression of Woodbridge Hospital in Singapore? Just a mental hospital? Or just like anyone out there, a place to lock up all the so call "Siao" ones?
It's definitely more than that. Seriously speaking, almost everyone of them has a very sad story, not to mentioned that they have to be locked up.
Can you imagine youself being locked up, and every day you are just doing the same things? Mandatory lifestyle, scheduled time to do everything including showering and resting time, even if you want to go to the washrooms you have to ask for toilet paper and you have to wait for someone who is available to pass you few pathetic pieces? This kind of life SUCKS, it's not a life at all!
However, this posting, although there is nothing much we can do, it's VERY DRAINING, V-E-R-Y, can even label this as the most tiring posting ever. Mainly because there are certain topics which is being seen as the "taboo", and worst is that we have to do a case study, interviewing one patient on our own! We really have to watch every word we said and at the same time, gain as much information which will help you to find out the diagnosis as possible and remember what they have said because the lecturers said that it's very offensive to them if we take out the form to write down every single thing the patient said.
Anyway, just in case, you all know, the people inside, they are just like you and me, ok, if not all, then almost 90% are the same as you and me. They talk like us, they eat like us. Perhaps the thinking could be different at times, but they are just NORMAL PERSON. Guess what? Today one Ah Mah made a rose for me! It is so nicely done and I really wished to put the picture up here so that I can share with you all, let you all see that in actual fact, they could be more capable than us sometimes! It's so sweet of that Ah Mah to make that white rose for me, really love it man~ Heh...
Another thing which makes me dislike this posting is the workload. It's simply unfair! Those lucky ones who are under Ms Dorathy is so much more fortunate! They just have to concentrate and do one case study and that is it! And she APPRECIATES the effort! Look at the other two lecturers, demand for this and that, you know what? I have a list of 9 things to complete and I have been struggling between giving care, homework and housework since my parents are out. Goodness. Can just spare me a little? Worst is that given that lecturer who is taking us now is so blur, will she remember what she asks us to do? What if she doesn't? Then all our efforts will go down the drain. SUPER SIAN~
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [11:09 PM]
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Some Thoughts and FeelingsSaw this line in the papers, "No person can live alone in his own world, in times of crisis or things that sadden you, the pain you are experiencing will definitely be reduced vastly if there is someone with you and share the burden with you. This works the same if you are experiencing something joyful, when there is someone to share with you, your happiness will be magnified."
This is very true indeed. Still remember when I know that I can confirm to get my bond in my chosen hospital, the happiness reduced because I found that there is no one to share my joy with me at that VERY POINT of time. In fact, I actually feel lost when I held my cell phone, going through the list and realised that there is no one single soul I can call to share my joy. I can tell you, IT SUCKS A BIG TIME.
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Still feeling very very upset about those "empty seats" in the new school term, especially when they talked about how those best friends are trying to overcome the sorrow. As if that is not bad enough, I saw articles about little female orphans being gang raped, SICK! I could never understand what all these people are thinking about, everyone is suffering and they still have the mood to commit this kind of things, ain't they S-I-C-K!
By the way, was surprised to see my Hong Kong Primary School on the papers, the name is right the pattern of the uniform is exactly the same but the school logo looks different, mine is round and it's winter uniform so the logo should be emboided with golden threads, yet the one appears on the papers looks squarish and it's blue in colour, the other school colour---Red is missing. Strange. However, that place looks like Block D (One of the haunted blocks where my primary 4 classmates got into deep trouble when they played "die xian" to ask the ghost to come up) lobby, whereby they often put up big notices next to the memorable 8 table tennis tables.
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Hmm... after 2 days home alone, I am getting used to it. At least I begin to appreciate doing anything I want to do without anyone else asking "why", I can cook whatever I preferred to eat or even skip meals if I have no appetite, just that the household chores is quite tiring and I really have to squeeze time to do it fast. Guess if I started alone right at the start won't be so tiring as there is lesser clothes for me to iron, and... heh... don't have to run in and out for water just to help my dad to water his "believed to be needing a lot of water" plant. *Naughty* Since my dad claims that the plant which is just a stick with 2 leaves on it that he brought back needs a lot of water so have to water it twice a day, I pour half a rice cooker of water when I water the plant. =P *Shrug* Shh.. I will let my dad know when he is back. Heh...
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [8:53 PM]
