Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Prank SMS.I have got this "weird", or rather, rediculous SMS, and this is already not the first time.
"Hi, this is Elvis. My friend give this phone number to me, want to be friends"
Who the heck is giving my phone number to someone I don't know???
I felt BETRAYED.
And what's more this is not a local number, looks a lil' like Malaysia number.
Please friends, if you are really truely my friends, please do not ever do this again, otherwise should I ever find out who is the culprit I will just report to the police.
Thank you.
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [3:28 AM]
Sunday, November 19, 2006
心情日記想寫這一篇很久了。
還記得在不久前，當我還是一個小孩子的時候，她總是走在我的身邊，放慢腳步來遷就我短小的雙腿。
曾幾何時，我慢慢的走在她的前方？
我是否走得太快，只懂得往前看而忽略了身後的人、事、物？
或許是我最近常常跟她出門，我忽然發現了，曾幾何時，她不再走在我身邊，而是在我的後方掙扎著追著我的一足一印？
我…
是否曾回頭看過她，顧及她能否跟上嗎？
當我回頭看到她辛苦掙扎上樓梯的那一幕，我忽然覺得很沉重，也不禁害怕，到底她還能陪我走多久？
我很怕…
我真的很怕有那麼一天，當我回頭，再也看不到她了，那我該怎麼辦？
這一雙手，我可以牽著，到天長地久嗎？
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I have been wanting to blog this for somedays.
Not too long ago, when I was still a kid, she has always been by my side, taking a much smaller step just to make sure that I won't have a hard time following.
Yet since when did the steps become so much slower than before and instead of walking side by side, she has fallen behind.
Am I just put too much focus to the path in front of me and neglected the things, issues and people behind me?
Have I ever take a step back or even turn and take a look to ensure that she is following behind me?
May be I have been going out with her more often than before, which is what make me realised that she has been struggling behind me to make sure that she can keep up with my pace.
DID I EVER ONCE STOP AND TAKE A LOOK AT HER? I can't help but questioned myself.
My heart was throbbing when I saw her struggling up the stairs, and I freak. How long more can she follow me?
I am afraid.
I am really very scared that one day when I turn I won't find her anymore, what should I do then?
If God could give me a wish, if there is a pair of hands that I would like to hold till the very end, these, would be the pair of hands that I would choose.
I love you, Mom.
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [3:54 AM]
Monday, November 06, 2006
OMG(= =i)
Apparently the story for my day has boardcasted.
Ermm... A bit... Ok, I was very very puzzled by the speed and the extend the story goes, everyone is asking how am I and was very careful when they speak to me. In fact, I know somehow someone must have said something when I received a missed call from the department followed by a message from Chong yesterday, little do I expect that so many of them know about it *Imagine even the housekeeper was asking me*.
Out of absolute curiousity, I asked one of the girls what did Jie Ying told them, and I was told that Jie Ying said I "cried very heavily" *Heavily??? [Frown]* that night and I only left the department at 2200hours.
Should I clarify?
Hmm... It was a bad day yet it is truely a very good experience; It was horrible yet it tested my limits; It is terrible and DID made me feel incompetent yet it build up my confidence the next round.
And I did not cry as badly as what people thought, I did cried, but I was hiding behind at the pantry and I was on phone with Kai-ma, speaking of the whole thing and for me, no doubt I can actually cry for the slightest reason but I usually cried because there is some pep-talk or words of console or concern. So I am quite fine actually.
Nonetheless, I really thank you for all the care and concern and wishes given, from Kian, who responded to me immediately after the incident; from Jen who called up and did so everytime when something happened to me and she knows about it, for willing to allow me to disturb you at the weirdest hours even though I won't do it, the words warmed my heart; from Chong who especially sms-ed me to ask me about how I was, and said will talk to Sister about the issue; from Zarina who actually apologised for something which I did not think it is your fault; from Jie Ying who helped me so much in handling the case when you saw that I can't cope even though you just arrived and know nuts about the case and your hug; from Nat and Meimei the words of console...
Thank you, really, appreciate it a lot from the deepest part of my heart.
=)
PS. The whole story is about yesterday I was left alone in the ward with the lot of new staff while one of the more senior one left the ward early, and at the time when we were usually busy, I had one patient suddenly collapsed and the whole event lasted for more than 2 hours and I ended up only be able to left the work place 3 hours after my official off time and results in a junior not being able to have her break at all as well. *Neither for me* Out of extreme stress and not understand why are people insisted on going off despite of me asking them not to leave. One new girl was asked to stay by me and Jie Ying but she insisted that Sister has promised her and she MUST leave, the more senior staff when she left actually the place was quite settled; and I hide at a corner and was making a call to my Kai-ma who was my ex-ward colleague to talk to relief stress and cried when I was describing the events.
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [10:13 AM]
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Hard SellJust escaped from a 2 hour long "hard sell" thingy.
Don't understand how can things happened like this, I mean, is it even legal in Singapore to make you sit and talk for 2 hours making you to sign up for programmes?
So sorry that Mom was so worried because I return home really late, 7 missed calls, horrifying right?
Guess I will disappear from the gym for a while.
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [2:28 AM]
