Ming
It was only a month ago when this was taken.
I didn't want to moan too much on facebook...
And I need to get a hold on myself in real life because my mom is breaking down every now and then when we talked about him.
But deep down...
It is VERY PAINFUL, to even think about him.
I don't know what is worse, to have him alive but comatose, or to have him gone...
It pains me to see how our whole family broke down...
It is just too sudden, and too soon.
He is only 30.
Life has just started.
I was looking forward to see him having his own family with the little one...
Why.
The most useless why, I have to ask.
Why him when he has a whole bunch to worry about?
I am very afraid to hear phone beep...
Everytime it beeped, I am worried that it would be the message to announce the end.
Ming.
Please.
Don't play plank on us anymore.
Wake up.
Come back to us please.
Wondering WorldIt's just complex.
Sometimes I wonder.....
When you are a client you behaved like the centre of the world, how are you like when the roles switched?
Would you be able to empathize with your clients better?
It also tells a lot on you seriously.
Looking at Yue tonight a lot of things ran through my mind...
I felt the love for her is so deep and there is just no end to it, I think I can really sit the whole day just to look at her and do nothing.
It warms my heart every time I see her.
And this love, is just different.
Then I begin to wonder...
How would the love for him be like?
I don't really like dejavu.
But...
I missed you.
...
I let go of you.
And I did promised you that I would take care of myself.
I can't help to miss you still.
EP was angry today, she looked so shag, I can't help but feel bad about it, though I know it is not my responsibility...
It....
Doesn't need any reason to be nice to others.
Why not?
If it makes the world better.
I really still feel so.
Though... I also learnt that my World isn't that simple anymore.
Would be more direct in the past to things I like and I don't.
Now...
My courage to express myself is in the drain.
I still... Love that fearless girl in the past.
