Niki Chow and Kevin ChengThis is COOL. Remember to off the music at the side bar first ya? =) Anyone any idea what exactly is the name of this song in Chinese? The subtitles at the end goes too fast, I couldn't catch it.
The bad news has caught everyone in shock, all of us are affected. Heard that Jen cried on the spot.
Nothing really THAT serious but...
My department is gonna be closed down and they are converting to a half Paediatric half Gynaecology ward. All the Onco-trained staff and those they intended to send for onco-course are being transferred out and the reason they gave to us is that we are not making money. Lame though but it's from the authorities, there is nothing we can do.
Everyone is quite badly affected, I see anger, I see frustrations, I see sadness, the morale in the department has purged to the lowest. Ah Ma called and talk and talk and talk last night at 1am plus when I was at work, nobody has any idea on what to do.
Apparently those who are "going for oncology course" are "specially selected"; I don't mean anything but, this "selection" do gave me a feeling that "we" are "unwanted".
Jie Ying asked me why am I not selected because they know that I have an interest in Oncology, she said I should make it known to Sister.
Haiz.
How to?
Not that I don't want to, but looking at Sister now, she looked so tired and lost, I really don't know how should I go about doing it. Well it is not that she don't know I supposed, last year we have a "career path form" which allowed us to indicate which area are we interested in and for me I filled in Oncology or Gerontology, and the thing is that I am being "kicked" into the Onco-Support Group, I thought she knows. And almost everyone in the place knows and I have talked to her before about the wish to specialize.
I don't know is it because of the recent incident but...
I just feel that I am almost of no value to the place somehow. It is very negative but that is how I feel. I don't know how many of you readers here understand exactly what I am trying to express here and I don't know how many of my colleagues are reading this blog. Anyway, this is just a way to let off some steam and unhappiness as what Sister said before, each and everyone of us have to let off the stress somehow somewhere. I believe everything happens for a reason and if that is what they, the people up there wants, there is nothing we can do because that is how things work, our voice is too minute to be heard.
I have totally no mood to work for the silly debate now but I cannot just leave it because I just realised today that the event will take place in less than a week's time. Haiz, imagine staying in the hospital till like 12pm plus for the meeting after 2 nights of work, I collapsed into my bed immediately after I reached home without even having the chance to take off my socks. I am very drained, both physically and mentally.
I think I really need a holiday for a break to do some quiet thinking.
I was being stared for "disturbing" the client too many times today.
It is by protocol that we have to monitor our clients for their vitals after operation and it is being done so every hour as far as possible. And this relative was not happy because we disturb the client too much. I explained to her it is our job to make sure that the client is safe and there is no complications and she "attacked" me "then how is she going to rest?".
Sian.
Rest is no doubt important, but isn't safety important too? Imagine I just left her alone to rest and if let's say she bled and bled and blood pressure dropped drastically who is going to answer for it?
The relative was obviously NOT HAPPY with the answer.
Sometimes it gets very difficult for us if the client don't cooperate with us. I really have the urge to tell her something like "you know what, actually our job is much easier if we don't have to come every hour, but for the safety for the client, we HAVE TO."
It could be quite crude but it is true.
At times I find that clients were not happy that we are disturbing them all the time, taking as that we have nothing better to do but to disturb them, but did they ever consider that if we do that we are actually giving ourselves more job? Then why do we still have to do it? It is FOR THEM.
Haiz.
Today was talking to Su about this. Somehow I just feel that people always have the misconception that nurses are like those on TV, only walking about with the hands in the pocket all the time, or sitting at the counter reading magazine, then at times just take temperature for patients.
And here I am telling you...
IT IS NOT TRUE AT ALL.
In actual fact, I have never put my hands in pocket when I am at work because there are simply too many things to handle. We are not the "TV nurse", there is actually more in nursing, so much so that sometimes I really feel like laughing about things that we would do, digging dustbin is so often to us, writing loads of reports, giving medicine, watching our clients and look out for any complications or abnormalities, communicate between the doctors, clients and the other health care team... We don't just poke clients for nothing, there are reasons for everything we do at work. We are handling life, something that once lose is gone, there is no way to bring it back.
Some parents would bring their kids along to the hospital to visit their friends, it is absolutely fine, only if they LOOK AFTER their kids. I'll get very very irritated everytime when the parents bring the kids to visit their friends but left them running about chasing, shouting, screaming and laughing at the corridor. Imagine if anyone of them bum into us who sometimes are holding all the needles and sharps and everything in the kidney dish just fell onto their little heads, who is going to be responsible? If the client happens to have some infectious disease, and the needle poke the kid, and the kid get infected, it is gonna be the rest of their life! Isn't it too late to blame anyone then?
Haiz.
The thing is, when we asked the kids not to run about because it's dangerous and the kid cry, it would become our fault. The parents would blame you complaining about you and things, it is TOUGH. There was once that this colleague told the kid, "if you want to run ask your parents to bring you to the zoo or park, this is a hospital" and the staff said she got a complain letter for that.
*Headache*
To add to all these, imagine if the client in the next bed complaining about the noise, and we have to ask the people to keep the volume down, somehow I felt at times I would hear all the cursing behind me when I walk out of the cubicle.
I guess it is all self awareness then when it is impossible to ban kids from hospital like one of my colleagues said before.
Tomorrow is weekend, and I am hoping for a good one. =)
I am hooked to this recently ever after playing with Silin in MSN. That girl is amazing, her speed of gathering the lil' pieces is so fast until I was almost sitting here and watch her doing it. LOL.
Massive discharges, so busy non-stop, but I guess really cannot rush in working, working slowly can actually allow time to think and check, the rest just leave it up to the people. No matter who hurry you, I guess reducing error is more important then speed, do it slowly at least I can think and organised my thoughts I guess?
Was at work actually but Su said I better see a doctor before any health issues arises, so in the end went to see Doctor for my problem which has been present for almost a week.
Anyway, thanks Kian for coming down and there after walked me home, I don't know how to get home without you man~
I feel so drained, better go to sleep now, tomorrow is a tough battle!
Once Bitten, Twice Shy. I Gave a lil' Pat on My Shoulder
I think for today, I would giv emyself a pat on my shoulder.
Despite of the fact that I did not eat anything resulting in all the stupid gastric which has been so disturbing till now I cannot sleep; despite of being ignored TOTALLY for repeating the same request for at least 3 times to 2 different person to ask to take over so that I could grab a bite and that "ignoring" part is a 100% spoiler...
I might have made someone felt offended, but when you have went through what I have been through, when you know that anymore mistakes of the same type would get you out of job, you would probably be doing the same thing as I do.
I am just glad that I stood my ground for insisting not to give the medicine when the doctor did not write the prescirption properly. Yes, I agree it may not be a big issue when you compare how the client yelled at us in the afternoon; Yes I agree that she did not yell at me so I probably won't know exactly how you feel just like how you don't really catch how I feel for all the events that happened; Yes I might just be being difficult or in a way, "kia-si"...
But...
Once bitten, twice shy.
I really really really don't ever ever want to go through all those tormenting moments again. What's more Ah Ma agree on not to give the client until the Doctor re-write that piece, I guess no one can pin-point you being wrong, if you follow what is "by right", at least I can live without worry and stress.
I love flowers.
I love pink.
I'm dainty and dirty; not a trace.
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl. And a beautiful one too.
The DIVA ♥
M A R I A ( N A D I A H )
M A R I A M ( F I O N E )
The GAMBLER Sagittarius.
AND
The PERFECTIONIST Virgo.
Seemingly impossible. BUT THEY WERE THE BEST FRIENDS.
Met in a Summer in 2002.
♥ LOVES CATS ♥.
Enjoys having Pizza together.
Go Wild in a KTV.
And will LOVE each other till time ends.
WISHLIST ♥
F O R M A R I A. A DEGREE.
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HER AUDIENCES ♥
They applauded her and gave her a standing ovation.
