Sometimes...Sometimes, I feel like telling them...
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... That this is a hospital, I can't be like a hotel kitchen to provide personalized diet that is cooked to your preference but a hot milo and a few pieces of biscuits is always available upon request.
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... That this is a hospital, those gloves and masks along the corridor is for us to protect our patients and ourselves so that you will be at a lower risk to become our customers, they are not for the purpose of you blowing up to make it as a balloon or some tissue box for your kids to play, so kindly don't play with them.
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... That this is a hospital, only patients who are sick, carrying germs, bacterias and viruses are here for treatment, and that they need rest, it is fine if you want to bring children but teach them that this is not a playground to play catching/hide-and-seek, shouting and running is not advised unless you are prepared to have a used needle to drop and prick you at any time, risking your lovely children to all sorts of infectious diseases, otherwise keep them at home with someone safe.
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... That I understand how boring and frustrating it is to be sick and stayed in the hospital, but I strongly believe that getting you a remote control for the TV is never as important as the next breath of the breathless patient on the next bed, so please be patient and we will get to you shortly when we are able to.
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... That every work place has its standards of procedures and practices set, especially when we are dealing with life. It is not easy for us to obtain our licenses and we are learning and constantly upgrading ourselves through numerous examinations and competencies throughout the whole year, so have a little faith in what we are doing, we are not any insane person that goes around killing people ruthlessly. And focus on your love ones, don't question us on why didn't we perform resuscitation for the patient on the next bed because it has nothing to do with you, every care and treatment has been discussed with THEIR OWN FAMILY AND PATIENTS.
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... That we are required not to know ONLY one particular diagnosis or management of ONE sickness but to have certain level of knowledge in our field, we don't practice base on World Wide Web nor a plain Internet article. We welcome discussions/questions but please remember that we have our parents too, I don't think it is too much to ask for some mutual respect/basic manners. A simple "thank you" or "please" is a bonus, if not at least respect our professionalism, don't challenge us base on an article that you come by.
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... That everyone is UNIQUE, even people with same diagnosis doesn't mean that they will receive the same treatment, there are multiple factors condition co-morbidity that the medical team needs to look at before tailor making a treatment plan for you. What your neighbor or aunties or uncles has for treatment might not necessarily suits you too.
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... That confidentiality is important, if you don't wish the whole world to know what you are here for, don't ask us anything about the patient on the next bed because the only answer you will get is: "sorry, diagnosis is confidential to other people". We can chit chat and joke about everything else on earth but the condition of patient on next bed.
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... That there is always a doctor around 24-7 in the hospital, but if you are asking for a family conference with detailed update on treatment and plans, please be patient and wait for the primary team to talk to you. Any other urgent condition the on call doctor can manage but... Be patient, they will come as soon as they are able to (you can't ask them to drop the resuscitator on the other patient just to answer your question on what is the plan for tomorrow for your family right, what if the one that they were resuscitating is your love ones, do you want that to happen to you too?)
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... That we know how worried you get about your love ones, but when I tell you that the procedure room haven't call yet means they are not ready yet, they need to clear the room and prepare clean fresh set of equipment for your usage, hurrying them won't do any good to you. Unless you are willing to take the risk of cross infection and use to used apparatus. Yet in the first place, I think you need to find the doctors and nurses that are willing to allow you to take such unnecessary risk.
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Sometimes, I feel like telling them.
Sometimes.
Sigh.
Blessing in Disguise
You left.
It was fast.
But honestly speaking, sometimes I really feel that, it might be better this way. As in, though fast, but the sufferings has been M-U-C-H shorten.
Of course, it would be hard for those who loved her to accept, but no single being would live forever. After seeing how people dragged on and suffered, can't even rest in peace due to the pain and the fear of "drowning on land", I think that being fast, may be a blessing afterall.
Finding a little comfort in having that thought...
Darling, as how you always would call me, I sincerely hope that you are happier now, in the arms of God, with the company of the little angels.
Walking to the End.She was one of the nicest.
In a way, polite and understanding...
Reminds me of the old time with those sweeties...
And...
She chose me.
My shift.
Pains me, but...
I tried, whatever I could to make her comfortable.
Despite of being in a lot of discomfort, she, did not forget her manners, still worried about me not going home despite of getting late.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Sweetie... May you, be blessed, with lesser pain through this route.
