Friday, December 31, 2004
In Addition to Nadiah's EntryIn addition to Nadiah's entry,
Manman said there might be somemore on the first of January, asking me whether I would like to go or not. In fact at the beginning I actually planned to stay home to see what else my parents would need to prepare for their trip to Hong Kong, but since this kind of things happen, I think they need more help than my parents do, moreover I still can ask my brother to help them to settle the things. Quite true la, this kind of time, who would have the mood to celebrate? Might as well use this time to help the others who is in need, am I right?
Oh, anyone else interested? Let me know! I will let you know the place and the things to do once I got news from Manman~
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [1:55 AM]
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Volunteer @ Sri Lankan High Commissioner in aid of the Tsunami disasterToday, I went over to the Sri Lankan High Commissioner @ Goldhill Plaza near Novena with Fione and Kewei to volunteer in packing of relief items for the Sri Lankan people in aid of the Tsunami disaster... Was thinking of doing some good deed before I start school
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I could still remember the day when the earthquake at Bandar Aceh happened... Me and my relatives were having a camping trip over at East Coast Park... Little did we expect that the earthquake at the ocean bed would cause tsunamis which had affected areas in Thailand, Sri Lanka, Malaysia, Maldives, etc... If the tsunami had really hit Singapore, I guess that you will never see me writing this entry... *Touch wood though*...
Anyway, we reached there at about 9.40am... We were supposed to meet Manman, Fione's best friend from YJC, at Novena but since she was late, we went ahead first... Went around the Goldhill Plaza to look for the lobby, only to realise that we had walked a big round... There were only a few volunteers when we arrived and there were lots of stacks of plastic bags filled with clothes... We had to separate those into 3 parts; men, ladies and kids... It was very tiring and it was soon before I started sneezing (I'm very allergic to dust and the smell of the mothballs)... Soon, more and more people came to help and by then, I really couldn't stand it any longer... My mucus kept flowing, my nose kept sneezing, I kept perspiring and my head got more giddy... Anyway, we stopped at around 12.10 noon since I really couldn't take it any longer and both me and Kewei were getting hungry... We then went off to United Square to have our lunch after seeing that there were a lot of people helping out too...
Had our brunch (breakfast + lunch for me) at McDonalds @ United Square... We then went around the mall and both me and Fione tried the car racing games... Lost both games to Fione... *Gosh! Once I get my licence, don't ever sit in my car... Haha*... Anyway, we had to go back to Goldhill Plaza to return the penknife... By then we saw a sign saying, 'NO CLOTHES please'... Indeed there were lots of clothes... I think what they need most are medications and food...
We then went to Orchard... Walked around and we even went to the Library @ Orchard to sleep... *Haha*... I finally went home at about 5.35pm and reached home at 6.10pm...
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.NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi again at [8:22 PM]
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Hui Lau San Hits SingaporeWAAAA~~~
Guess what?
I have found a shop in Orchard today! Must be wondering what shop it is. It's Hui Lau San! A famous dessert shop in Hong Kong! *Should be the same shop cuz the signboard is the same and the contents of the menu, the wordings they use is exactly the same* The menu looks the same, though my brother said that there is lesser variety, but the price is kinda horrifying. Was telling him that I rather fly back to Hong Kong to have my dessert there then to pay more to have it here.
Heh..
Somehow I am always very very happy whenever I find anything that I only see in Hong Kong previously in Singapore. Perhaps in such a way, I would feel that I am closer to my home. =) Silly huh? But I just like to see this kind of things, from shops to as small as food stuff. Guess it's really kinda impossible for me to stay in this country for the rest of my life.
I LOVE MY HOME~~~~ =)
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [9:39 PM]
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Be More ThankfulWhat's with this world man? Disaster, war, epidemic, death and heart broken souls, where is the peace that everyone is screaming for? Looking at the dead bodies lying all over the beach and how people are mourning at them, just can't help but to ask, what wrong have these people done that they deserve this kind of treatment?
Was talking to PN about this, can you all imagine, if there is any single minor part goes wrong during our reincarnation *If this exists* we could be in there place suffering! Because these places are so near! That is why PN and I both thinks that we should be grateful to whatever we have now and be more thankful. I cherish what I have, really, because I know how not easy all these came about, be it the things that came to me or people, especially those who are close to me, don't you all think that it's really kinda "weird" how did we get to know each other? So many hundreds thousands zillion of people on Earth and we get to know each other, not the one beside you but you! Amazing huh?
*Thankful*
,,,
(-. -)
oo=I
I__ *Pray*
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [11:58 PM]
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Happy Birthday Happy Birthday Happy Birthday to You!Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to Mommy,
Happy Birthday to You!!!
Zhu Ni Shen Ri Kuai Le,
Zhu Ni Shen Ri Kuai Le,
Zhu Ni Shen Ri Kuai Le~e,
Zhu Ni Shen Ri Kuai Le~~~~
Today's my Mommy's birthday~~~
Happy birthday Mommy~
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [1:00 AM]
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
One Month One Month One Month!!!!!!!!Yeah! My one month anniversary ever since I say bye bye to my appendix, this time last month I was knocked out in OT, didn't even get chance to say goodbye to my poor little perforated, dried up not in normal position appendix. Sigh~~~
I think the op started around this time if I am not wrong, because I remembered when I reach the theater, it was 2222hrs and this is the time the anaesthetist talked to me. After that I was pushed into the anaesthetic room to wait for my turn to be operated. Still remember how I curled up in the blanket because it's damn cold inside the OT. Sian~
And now one month later it's my turn to see people curling themselves under the blanket. Haha.
Worth Celebrating?
gRinZ~
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [11:18 PM]
I WishedSometimes I wished I could be someone like Shir, being such a frank person~ Shir is my only closer friend in class in JC when I repeat year 1. This girl, she is very very very very very straight forward and her words do scare you sometimes, though words could be quite hurting yet I still appreciate it for at least I do not have to keep guessing what she is thinking about nor do I have to worry about being backstabbed when I am with her.
I kinda miss this Ms. Marlando as I haven't seen for for like 1 year plus plus plus. She is always busy... =(
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Friday, December 17, 2004
My A & E PostingTired... Physically and emotionally. Basically I guess it's because my body is not really ready to get back to work, that is why for the first three days I always feel very painful when I walk because in A & E we are fighting against time but I just have to bear with it because I have to behave professionally. You would never know, sometimes things just changed in the next second, everyone have to react really fast, being blur is the major killer inside A & E.
Another thing is that we are dealing with life and death, real life and death. I just saw an old granny passed away in front of my eyes a few days ago, you know, you just can't help but to feel bad because a couple of minutes ago, this person is still in front of you and you are doing everything you can to save that person's life and now what you are facing is a corpse, but luckily, in this case, the family is not THAT upset when they got the news because I think they are more mentally prepared. However, today...
This morning when we report to work, the staff nurse told us that there is this guy who met an accident, he is not very much older than me and he did not make it after much was being done, they really did a lot of things man~~~
Later in the day I was working in the resuscitation room and I walked past the door inside the room, the door was not even open, LOOK, THE DOOR OF THE RESUS ROOM IS CLOSED, and I heard a horrifying scream from outside the door, a scream that sounded like "I cannot accept this, why is this happening", it was a scream filled with grief, hopelessness. I almost cried instantly when I saw that. Even my colleage who are not near the door who are deep inside the resus room can hear the scream...
I can't say I am not affected by this, especially when I saw the person's condition physically when the coroner came, I can understand why was the relative so upset about him, it was not only bad.. ok.. he is in REAL BAD shape, I cannot tell much here.. But I could feel how heart broken the mother is, that leads me to think, if anything really happens to me or my brother, my mom would probably scream louder than that lady because during my hospital stay, I can feel the heartache coming from my mother.
*Sigh*
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Monday, December 13, 2004
Happy Birthday to Me...
Happy Birthday to Me
Happy Birthday to Me
Happy Birthday to Nadiah
Happy Birthday to Me...
*Gosh*... I'm so lame... Even got to sing my own birthday song... *Sigh*
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.NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi again at [9:06 AM]
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Where to Draw the Line?Well, somehow...
We are all individuals, indeed it's true that we do not live in our own world, we need each others at times, but I think there is a line somewhere that each of us should not cross because once you have crossed that line, the other party may not be able to bear with that and your request would become a bother to the particular person. I guess that is why sometimes people find that you cannot get along with people, we call this overly dependent. I think the only people who will never find you troublesome is only your family members, blood-bond family, remember, not even your partner. When you are too dependent on others, you would actually suffocate them without knowing. Each of us live as an individual, not attached to each other which is why we need to give space to people, a space for them to breathe, this is the line I am referring to.
I don't know am I too dependent on others, I hope I am not because I do not wish to suffocate the people that I love. In case you do not realise, too much love could drown another person, push him or her away from you, be it family, friends, or even your spouse.
So... question, each of us have a different standard, WHERE TO DRAW THE LINE?
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Wednesday, December 08, 2004
I Don't UnderstandIt's been so many days after operation, why is my tummy still painful? (T.T) Even if I touch it and press it slightly, it's painful, the pain is like when you press on a bruised site. Worst is that sometimes I don't even have to press I can feel the pain. Today I actually have to stop and lean against the wall for a rest because it is too painful to carry on... WHY?
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
I saw HIM.... I saw HIM... Yeah, HIM... The one who had caused me lots of pain and suffering... Well, everything was totally unplanned and unexpected... I was out with my best guy buddy from sec sch today... Well, we haven't met for quite sometime already so we decided to meet up... Anyway, wanted to ask him more about his job lah cuz maybe I'll be taking part-time job at his workplace...
Anyway, I was already at the bus interchange waiting for the bus when I received a message from HIM, saying that HE saw me at Timezone @ Northpoint... I was surprised to see that message especially since I know HE seldoms come by to Yishun... Well, HIS girlfriend lives in Yishun too... *Surprise, surprise*... By then, I knew I had to see HIM again... One thing was becuz I haven't seen HIM for a period of 7 months, and the other was that for me to be sure that my feelings for HIM was no longer there...
So I met HIM at the foodcourt @ Northpoint... HE was sitting there facing Harvey Norman... I just gave a smile to HIM...
My feelings then: A little nervous but a little excited too...
HE was very much the same, except that HE longer uses his specs... A little chubbier though... *Hehe*... The meeting was very informal... HE immediately took my New Paper after seeing that I was holding one... Nothing much lah, we just asked each other little things about this and that... About 5 mins later, I had to go...
My feelings after the meeting: Happy... Cuz I was very sure that my feelings for HIM had already faded away... Totally... I was not nervous nor excited during the whole thing... I see HIM as a friend now...
And I'm very sure now...
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
Humph~My Attachment is NOT over!
Haiz... Am rotting at home, wanna find job also cannot... *Sob.. I can't even move faster*
Anyway, Dear Mac called me this morning... Chatted for 17 minutes plus plus *Dear do you need me to settle that bill?* She is going to the airport soon~ And in no time she will be back in Singapore!!!! -Ha- I miss her a lot la... Very happy can see her again~~~ That helps to reduce the sad fact that I still have 2 more weeks of attachment to go.. =)
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.beaNie 豆豆 again at [6:06 PM]
Attachment's Over... YAY!! My attachments are finally over... OOH!! I'm so happy... Anyway, now, I need to find a job... Need to pay for my school fees and driving lessons fees... *Sigh... No money arh*...
Anyway, Mac is coming home soon... YEAH!!
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Friday, December 03, 2004
Am I very bad?I have been browsing through the things I wrote here, was thinking can I publish this blog to everyone anot? Main because some of the comments are quite harsh and I do not wish to hurt anyone with this. This is a place to share, not to hurt anyone.
I guess it's not easy, as in to be frank and not blunt. Have talked to Mr Sim and he agrees with me, he said, "That is the thing that we have to learn, and since it's not easy, that is the beauty of learning it."
HOW?
Girls, what do you all think? Can we publish this blog?
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