The re-shuffling of groups has successfully made me and Fiona to confuse everybody, especially our team members because they keep calling Fiona Fione and Fione Fiona.
=p
Too bad.
Can't help.
But...
I think it is really good, for, I am beginning to find the lapsed, need to push a lot man.
Never read Shakespeare's work before. In a way I find Romeo and Juliet a little too heavy, plus my literature lessons my school did other books that others like they have never heard of them before.
Bits and pieces everywhere, even this post.
Loads of things I want to share, but not very sure if I should.
Then again...
Those who know me long enough would know that I perspire easily and a lot.
As in... A-L-O-T.
Especially in a tropical country like this that it is summer all year round, perspiring is inevitable.
One of my friends ever commented before that if there is a trademark for me, perspiring is definitely it.
(-____-#)....
Never like sweatiness.
That sticky, uncomfortable feeling that "NO ONE TOUHES ME AFTER THAT!" *Roar*
On top of some social awkwardness that the clothes would always be wet at the non-ideal area and light or rather white clothing doesn't last. Then again, which area would the clothes be wet and not awkward?
Okay.
Sorry for digressing.
I only realised yesterday that for the past 4 days I have been having anhidrosis. I was always cold and shivering but my body temperature always linger above 38, every 5-6hours it would creep there once and say hi to me.
Frustrated and mentally tormenting because I don't know where exactly is the infection.
Mucus are clear.
Minimal unproductive cough.
No skin lesions or swelling.
Well, do feel a little race in the heart, a little syncope, otherwise I "feel ?perfectly" normal.
All that I could do, is to wait for my body to tell me 6 hours is up.
When that sweatiness feeling started coming back yesterday, it was a weirdly strange feeling.
So irritatingly familiar.
But...
I wasn't totally detesting that feeling.
At least, I am now 22 hours afebrile.
And so...
Ultimately something I don't really like, is something that is actually protecting me, something that can make me feel better.
Though...
I do hope that this mild hyperhidrosis can be a little bit more controlled at times.
Just... A Very Familiar Random Feeling.It is random, I have to say.
Just like what happened on the first day of 2015.
I think God has planned this ahead.
And somehow I just felt it.
May be...
Like what Joe once had said.
「你若不離，我必不棄，愛情也好，友情如是，親情如是⋯」
Then again...
I can't explain why.
突然...覺得很多曾經很重要的事情都已經不再重要
And then...
You came to my mind again.
A couple of years back, I had this.
You left, 10 years ago.
Without knowing how much scars and wounds you have left on me.
不想理I think this has become even more apparent after I started going to church.
Mom keep thinking that I have prejudice against her, that the other person, but honestly speaking, I so wanted to tell her that I don't give a damn.
Even if she doesn't like something I say which I don't see any problem at all; I mean, ultimately, we are all and can only be responsible for our own happiness. You can lead a life feeling upset with everything on Earth all the time, so what? Days still have to pass by. I don't really want to be bothered about if you feel upset with minute things to me like, if SHE FEELS (note, she FEELS, not I am) that I am nicer to the other one because with that, I don't need to watch every single word I said, and seriously, for I don't want to carry that burden to walk that thousand miles.
But, mom doesn't see that point and want to feel upset and affected when she is upset. That I really can't help. I know my moral values and that sense of doing right is there, that is it. I might be blunt but I am not lying to anyone just to humo
ur them, because the harm that brought about ultimately when the truth surfaced hurts more than anything else on Earth, I have been thorough it so many times, not necessarily I need to actively seek for an answer, it just came and I will always know, I don't know why.
I hate cheating.
Seriously.
Anyway.
不想為了討好誰而欺騙，不想再為了討好別人而活，很累。
事實是存在的，真相總會浮現。
欺騙，永遠大不過誠實面對的失望。
我，祇想活得更簡單、更灑脫。
So, in order to be answerable to myself, I have shut it.
Sick.Sick the moment I landed into Singapore, little do I expect that the fever would just strike like that.
And super pathetic the whole house I only left with a mercury thermometer (or luckily I still have that?)
The moment when the temperature read over 38, the only line that came to my mind was "GG".
Still went ahead with school today even though I was so hot last night that I dragged myself up at 4am and took 2 panadol ultimately instead of the usual 1 that I would prefer to have.
Then again went to see staff clinic this morning was only given one day sick leave when the day is almost over. Spike again to 38 this evening when I thought I could get away without panadol...
Really haven't had fever for so long it is really terrible to have one, the chills and rigors when the fever came is terrible.
Sigh.
Still.
Lucky I had it after I landed into Singapore, imagine I had it before I fly, I would be stranded man!
Thank God.
Wished that I could do something but there is nothing I could do.
I can't even be there.
Things just don't seem to stop coming, wave after wave.
I am no doubt on holidays, but feel even more stressed.
For that assignment that needed to complete, that convenient "thank you".
I told myself, this is the last time, which is what pulled me to go on.
Somehow...
It is just a very strange feeling.
I am alright.
The time has come probably.
I don't know which is better, but to pray, for that I am lost as well.
It is just so not easy to get along with people, I find.
Tired may be?
I am always looking for better days to come, or...
May be I need to change my mentality, that no better days would come, so that AT this moment, is still better than next, then in that way, I might cope better.
I love flowers.
I love pink.
I'm dainty and dirty; not a trace.
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl. And a beautiful one too.
The DIVA ♥
M A R I A ( N A D I A H )
M A R I A M ( F I O N E )
The GAMBLER Sagittarius.
AND
The PERFECTIONIST Virgo.
Seemingly impossible. BUT THEY WERE THE BEST FRIENDS.
Met in a Summer in 2002.
♥ LOVES CATS ♥.
Enjoys having Pizza together.
Go Wild in a KTV.
And will LOVE each other till time ends.
WISHLIST ♥
F O R M A R I A. A DEGREE.
F O R M A R I A M. Machu Picchu.
HER AUDIENCES ♥
They applauded her and gave her a standing ovation.
