Trust Your InstinctI think the communication session that I attended is quite helpful, in a way that I was taught that I can trust my instinct on how I feel towards certain things.
Hao ever told me that before that she thinks that I can trust my instinct because she thinks that I am not the type that is overly sensitive.
I have this friend who had got into trouble lately, the groom walked out on her just a day before marriage.
When I was looking at her wedding photos, I don't know why I just have a very strange feelings that the groom doesn't love her. Those wedding shots are pretty, but they are "cold". I couldn't feel any happiness from the guy that he is getting married. It is hard to explain but it really gave me that feeling.
Hmm... I missed Hao. Now not working shift I don't even get to meet up with her, there are whole lot of things that I would really want to share with her, badly.
Sigh.
I really hope that my friend can get through this mess soon.
I feel it that...
Love is like oxygen, the basics of all kinds of relationship; care and concern are like the sub part of it; and this oxygen exists in many forms.
在一段所謂「缺氧」的關係裡, messages from the past acted as a supplemental oxygen, scrolling through them is like pumping in some oxygen to boost the faith, hope and love to carry on.
這，或許就是為什麼我那麼喜歡看chat history的原因吧。Probably why I like to browse through old messages as well, no matter how much I was angry, upset or hurt, it pushes me to go on, forgive and forget.
That was what happened when I saw that packet of mee goreng in the instagram; what happened when the pain was so bad and how it dragged on till the talk.
It was until tears welled up in your eyes and rolled down then...
I realized that you really mean it when you gave me the promise of forever.
It was so common for people who told me the same thing and disappear without a trace left, they might mean it when they said it, or they might just simply want to say for the sake of saying.
You were not the type of person that is very expressive all along, I know.
But sometimes I really cannot feel whether you really want it, or because I am pushing it.
I don't know if you are accommodating me because I asked or you too willingly wanted it.
I can't tell because from what I always gather from you, if I am there, it is good, if I am not, it is God's will, and you are very fine without having me around. Occasionally I do feel that I am 可有可無的。Even if I were to leave/disappear tomorrow, you won't feel anything because it is His plans.
Until then.
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I am sorry.
It was...
Too much love.
Xian said that we both still care a lot about each other, it is a shame that we have to end with separate ways.
Have met up with many close friends lately.
I guess that is how I do feel.
Silin... Like very long never type this name, felt a bit weird when I heard her voice calling out my name the other day too.
But we both think that we will keep things going as long as we can, no force but we will try.
Forgotten how we have gotten close, probably it was that I wasn't so wary of people yet and still believed that there are real friendships among colleagues.
Silly enough until things happened.
I am still glad, I have her.
=]
Thank you Babe, for the friendship.
Love to talk to her, forever so encouraging and inspiring.
=]
She thinks that I am worrying too much, yet to me, thinking for the person that I truly care about is part of me.
Yesterday she came to find us and I think I am the first one she caught. Oops.
Enjoying all these little final moments with her, for I know that she will be gone soon enough.
Think I will miss this year of adventures with her man!
=]
Thank you for always thinking in my shoes.
Like I said before, with you around, I never need to worry.
For I know the world was well supported by you.
I am only trying to help as much as I can.
Long chat with Mabel and Bib today, felt much better.
I was, very upset and hurt.....
Cried so many nights and so many times...
People who didn't know what I have been through just jumped into conclusion and commented things as what they have seen on the surface, criticized me for what I have done without understanding why I choose to do it this way.
But...
It doesn't bother me, not anymore.
Once a woman can stand and get passed the hurdle without the usual support, she will never need that support again.
My beloved Suzaku's Spirit - She died. She revived. She become stronger than ever. She protects what she believed and loved.
I love flowers.
I love pink.
I'm dainty and dirty; not a trace.
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl. And a beautiful one too.
The DIVA ♥
M A R I A ( N A D I A H )
M A R I A M ( F I O N E )
The GAMBLER Sagittarius.
AND
The PERFECTIONIST Virgo.
Seemingly impossible. BUT THEY WERE THE BEST FRIENDS.
Met in a Summer in 2002.
♥ LOVES CATS ♥.
Enjoys having Pizza together.
Go Wild in a KTV.
And will LOVE each other till time ends.
WISHLIST ♥
F O R M A R I A. A DEGREE.
F O R M A R I A M. Machu Picchu.
HER AUDIENCES ♥
They applauded her and gave her a standing ovation.
