Was sent for a course for 4 days, and today was just the day one.
Want to pen this down before I forget/let this thing slipped my mind.
Traumatized.
Why?
We were playing a game, which the 8 teams has come to an agreement to do something together, which ultimately, one team betrayed.
I find it very disturbing.
As a healthcare professional, I valued integrity A LOT, for behind the curtain, it is just us and the clients, whatever that we do, whatever we document that whether if we have done it, ultimately it is our integrity. There is NO SHORT CHANGE, BLACK IS BLACK, WHITE IS WHITE when we come to this part of our character, this, is apparently what I THINK only.
As this is a leadership course, I presumed that we were the identified possible leaders in future, and to think what this people do.
Yes, I agree that this is ONLY a game.
But if you can't even stick to your integrity in a game, what should I expect when it come to serious work?
CAN I STILL TRUST YOU?
To me, it tells a lot.
And...
Worse is, there is no guilt in the group of person who did it. They didn't voice out anything during the negotiation and even during the open interview, the person did not show any signs of shame or guilt.
Perhaps I am just taking things too seriously. I asked myself how should I look at things from the bright side?
So.... I told myself, lucky thing, these group of people are not my colleagues, and they better don't be. And... 80% of the people are still keeping to what was agreed on.
I didn't want to complain or be too critical nor judgmental, I just couldn't help but to find it disturbing. So much for future leaders huh.
