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Friday, January 08, 2016

Constant Struggle

Mo See they all found out tonight by chance that I have been going to church and they start asking me why.

Something I don't quite understand.

What I feel is, even though I believe in a certain thing, I do not want to keep mentioning it at the mouth the whole time, like God give me this God is this and God is that.

I know, He works.
That is it.
Why must a reason be present?

I told them, just by going to church doesn't make one a Christian, much like eating Indian food doesn't make you an Indian (just an example); I am still seeking for the thing that I wanted to look for.

Anyway.

Saw this.




















Think this served as a very good reminder.
I feel that I am under constant struggle.
There are a lot of negative impact keep coming in life, and sometimes I am just too tired and just wanted to talk to someone about it, that someone can give me a response while on the other hand I do not wish to gossip about anyone, as I know how destructive it can be. 
That constant struggle is really killing me, my personality and my relationships.
Sigh.

I really wish to become a better person, sincerely.
God, give me that wisdom and chance will you?

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