A bit early today and usually I don't like to write that early because in such cases a lot of times a lot things will happen the whole day.
But I don't want to forget this.
I am thankful for my amnesia.
Was chatting with a friend last night and was talking about some unhappiness a couple of months ago. I was said to have a sulky face everytime I met her and I couldn't say much because I can't remember why, which only a day later then I remember why.
Anyway, I think because it was just too unhappy already and I just deliberately forget about what happened even though I think it is kinda legit for me to react in such manner because I remember of speaking to someone about it and she too felt it that way. But I choose to forget about it so that in a way I do not want to use the same thing over again to "attack" her (is attack the word? Hmm).
Anyway, the whole point is that... I am thankful for being forgetful in such way, probably would make me a happier person too though I wished may be this kind of amnesia can last a~b~i~t~ longer, or rather, not to recall any unhappiness again.
I don't know if you are going to see this but if you want to know, I am okay for you to ask me again for the reason, but you probably need to give me time to recall again for it is making me all bitter again and I don't like that feeling, so I am trying to let it slipped off my mind again. I can still try recalling if you are still interested to know when you see this. I know you were reading here previously, now I ain't sure. I know you don't like to communicate this way, but if everything is peaceful, I'd rather remain status-quo in a way because I am not very sure how important this is to you while on my side, it is all in the past already. Or... I might already recall to tell you and He meant it for me to tell you.
Yesh, and I know you know that I am referring to you. Else I will only tell you if you are the right person.
