It was until tears welled up in your eyes and rolled down then...
I realized that you really mean it when you gave me the promise of forever.
It was so common for people who told me the same thing and disappear without a trace left, they might mean it when they said it, or they might just simply want to say for the sake of saying.
You were not the type of person that is very expressive all along, I know.
But sometimes I really cannot feel whether you really want it, or because I am pushing it.
I don't know if you are accommodating me because I asked or you too willingly wanted it.
I can't tell because from what I always gather from you, if I am there, it is good, if I am not, it is God's will, and you are very fine without having me around. Occasionally I do feel that I am 可有可無的。Even if I were to leave/disappear tomorrow, you won't feel anything because it is His plans.
Until then.
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I am sorry.
It was...
Too much love.
Xian said that we both still care a lot about each other, it is a shame that we have to end with separate ways.
It is.
I felt it, finally.
Me... Slow poke.
