To me, certain things it has to happen like that it is like that. Like if it is the upper management's decision, who are we to challenge them?
To think that one actually "demand" for an explanation from the superior, I just cannot justify the reason for demanding for an answer, no matter how unhappy you could be. To me, they become your boss not for no reason.
Am I that outdated?
Sigh.
Sister SC had a long chat with me today after the class, she said she noted that I have been very tired all the time, whether I am stress. She was trying also to find out how the class is coping and wondering if there is anyone giving me a hard time.
I am very apprehensive on what information I should/could share, gave some suggestions. And...
She told me that I was being "chosen" as a class leader, not by chance.
May be I am "chao lao"???
She said I am more matured than others, I didn't challenge her that there are older people in the class, rather I told her that sometimes, I am not sure if I did fulfill the role as a leader.
"Did I do it right?"
"Did I do what I need to?"
"Did I give trouble?"
These are the questions that has always been hovering in my head.
Sigh.
And I wonder, if I should share it across the class that...
They have to expect more work coming.
And they fall way below the expectation.
And they fall way below the expectation.
It is so not easy to manage people.
*tired*
All that I could, is to pray to Him, asked Him to give me the deemed wisdom that I need to speak the right.
Tomorrow will be another challenge.
God.
I need more strength and wisdom to get past this.
Amen.
