I wasn't involve in caring for you directly.
But, I know that you were a kind hearted good man who really appreciate what others did for you.
Seeing how upset people get, I too, felt a little loss, somehow.
...
I wonder...
Which one hurts more...
Knowing it right from the start and seen you through the pain...
Or...
Keeping the truth from them so that others won't have to worry about your condition all the time?
Seeing people being so affected by your "sudden" departure...
I really wonder...
Would it be better if you have kept them informed of your condition?
I guess...
People are upset with sudden loss because there was no chance to do a proper closure.
I can understand why do you want to keep it low profile and not letting people who care about you to know what is going on...
But...
Seeing how affected people get, I just can't help but to think...
IF...
They knew what had been going on...
IF...
They were informed...
IF...
They have the time and the chance to say a proper goodbye, to bid you farewell...
Will they cope better?
I... Could never find the answer.
