很愛哭。
也很會哭。
Sometimes I can just cry for the weirdest reason that nobody can understand.
I remember how I burst into tears when Bharathi helped me to settle my work when both my hands are tied with some other patients.
I remember how I cried because Mong saved a piece of rice cake for me and walked out of the convenient store with a cup noodles after one of my real long and hard day.
I guess all of us just had a certain button that if anyone pushed on it, you will just cry.
有時候我覺得我也很奇怪。
One odd circumstances that I just can't cry when it's considered as a time when everyone should feel upset, that would be the time when a lot of people are crying at the same place. My tear duct will just automatically be blocked.
I realized that when...
My uncle passed away a couple of years ago.
I got the news when I was working. I broke down at the counter at work.
But when I reached the hospital, I saw a number of my family members crying there, and my tears just stopped flowing, though there are some bitterness remained in my heart.
The other day, another patient gone, the family turned hysterical and few of my colleagues were holding their tears...
I am the odd one there standing, appeared indifferent but the pain was deep inside, I felt it pinching, but my focus was all on giving support.
其實...
或許，眼淚之於我，是一種最快、最有效的de-stress方法，每一次哭完，我的思路反而更清晰。可能是情緒爆發完了後我有更多的空間思考吧？
不知道別人會不會也是這樣ㄟ？
