Too many people are telling me how horrible a place that I am going to work at, how bad a choice I have made and they have described it in a way that it is worse than hell.
I know.
Working in the ward is never easy.
But...
I just wanna try.
As when I felt totally flat after meeting up with my primary school classmates Ailing and Wen Shan tonight for dinner (Ailing has been working in where I just joined since like a year or so ago); I saw this...
*Taken from http://www.wretch.cc/blog/cwwany/16876933*True la.
I have decided to walk out of that place, I should have more faith.
Feeling so shameful also for the lecture I had this morning, the questions shot by the educator, so many of them I can't answer or I just give the wrong choice! Compare to a new graduate, I think I'd better to dig a hole to bury myself.
=(
And I just can't help but I do miss those days in KKH, somehow.
Those code blues though I always grumble, but at least I more or less have some clues on what to do, unlike now...
I hate to feel so loss and helpless.
Somehow, I also start to miss the time when I mess around in the unit talking nonsense with KK, so I messaged her at the time when I was about to fall asleep in one of the lectures =p, just a way to keep myself awake in those long boring one.
Ah yeah.
Finally someone is sitting next to me today, yesterday I was so left out, I sat in the lecture alone the whole day as if there is some kinda ghost or monster that is next to me.
Wait I load the pictures up...
I strongly believes that there is some spirits which all others but me can see them, if not why is it that no one is taking the whole bench next to me?
The white wooden table makes me feel so tempted to do something I used to do in lectures in JC---Use pencil and start to draw cartooons on it. Anyway can be rubbed off later without a trace left. Hiak Hiak...
Is it kinda obvious that I am really really bored? I started to entertain myself with my phone. Besides messaging KK, Kian and Haohao I started to take pictures of myself...
Haiz.
Did I make a wrong choice?
