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Monday, January 02, 2012

Happy New Year~

2012 is a new start for me.
Yup.
For those who know, I was admitted on the 29/12, for my eye op finally.
Went in at about 2pm, completed the whole thing at about 6pm and was just too dopey to feel anything until I think I start to hear someone coming next to my bed at about 8plus in the evening.
Seriously.
GREAT to see a familiar face when you wake up from anaesthesia.
Thank you Mong, for staying around, it was definitely not a short wait from the time I walked in at about 1plus in the afternoon and finally located me at about 8pm, 6 long solid hours of wait...
I really appreciate that.
Thanks for the sips of water that you have helped me in taking.
Thanks for removing the hot and stuffy canvas from the ambulance transfer behind my back.
Thanks for dropping by every day, be it like a 10 minutes short checking out or a slightly longer chat.
My first post op day was probably the best time I had during my immediate post op days, minimal pain, more energy. And I managed to stay awake the whole afternoon to talk to visitors. If not for the IV Methylprednisolone that I have to be on, I almost thought that it would be the best time and day for discharge.
Thank you Mo See, Dr Teoh, Dr Iris, Dr Lim, Sister Xu Yi, Sister Fung Chee, Mac, Alice, Angelina, Fad Fad, Xiuling, Trister, Choon Mei, for coming over to entertain me.
Day 2 was progressing fair, Thank you Stella, my little baby for coming over after her night shift to check on how I was doing, thanks Michelle for the soya bean you left on my table, and Alice who came over to drag me to the ward party preparation that makes me feels a little more distracted. Thank you 3rd aunt for coming over to visit. Shitian and my brother who dropped by. Thank you KK for sending the bear over (It's decided ok? Don't call it 七彩,I diarrhea and puked till 七彩, there has to be another name for the bear!)
With the more swollen eye and more lethargic as compare to the first day, the Dr has to start another antibiotics the Dr added on another antibiotics which started all the disaster.
I have always know that I would have diarrhea when I take Augmentin, one of the ampicillin group family drug, my highest record is 8 times in a day. This time, 7. But what adds on the agony was the cloaxacillin, another penicillin group of drug.
I was being woke up at 2am for a dose of cloax, and at 4am, I was being woke by a choking, burning sensation together with a sense of fullness at the back of the throat.
Day 3 was going downhill, the 4am drama is definitely something to remember for life of how it feels to have heartburn and there is nothing you can do about it.
IT WAS HORRIBLE.
It didn't came to me as a side effect of the cloax at first, I was too busy coping with the sensation, I sat up and lean back , totally cannot lie down at all, breaking in cold sweat wanted that irritating feeling to go away till the tiredness took me away and I dozed off seating on bed.
Yet they went on with another day of antibiotics, with me having the agony of nausea, diarrhea, lost of appetite, I can't take drink properly.
Was kinda drowsy the whole morning because of all the symptoms, that even my baby Stella came and talked to me after her last night this round, I didn't even know that I dozed off again due to extreme tiredness. Only realized that she left because Xian came by to visit me. I can hardly swallow anything at all. That was and has to be the most horrible day during this stay.
Refused to be controlled and disturbed by all the symptoms, I walked around with Jasmine who came over to visit me in the afternoon. It gets kind of agonizing because you do not see an end to this, you don't know when you can go home, you don't when you should go home when they offered to let you home while you know it well that you are not yet ready for it because of the symptoms.
It suddenly hits me.
Dr Alethea Yee was right, the MOST uncomfortable sensation is not being constipated nor vomitting, it is when you want to puke but nothing comes out, the NAUSEA FEELING THAT YOU HAVE is driving you CRAZY.
When the dark falls I always feel scared, for I don't know if I would be able to sleep peacefully tonight or would I be waken up by the symptoms again.
And then, I started thinking about my patients.
Wonder how they have been facing all these in the hospital, and all that they rely on, is probably the little window that looks out to a world with different temperature. It is definitely depressing to stay in, I think, no nurse would be able to help to cope with that except for your own self.
I begin to feel more for my sick, long term patients and admire them more.
The sick, long path that they simply don't see any end to it.
At least I can still pray for time to go faster during this agonizing period, but for them, this is just simply mental torture.
It acted up again last night and I did not managed to sleep from 2 plus in the morning till 4 plus when I finally knocked out due to extreme tiredness, and I was again woke up because of a bad dream that I was fed to eat some burnt metallic plate that left me waking up vomiting.
And so...
The Dr say it would be better for me to stay as the vomiting has probably caused the increased in pressure in the eye causing it to be more swollen than yesterday.
Haiz.
I sorta like cried when Mong came and see me in the afternoon, the discomfort is simply too much to tell anyone.
Thank you Zhiwei for especially coming over on your off day, Mong's family made a trip up to visit me, Haziqah and Sakinah who came over during their break and not forgetting Trister who have been eating with me almost every day.
Really appreciate all the heartwarming greetings from everyone who know about this, including those wishes on Facebook.
路,还是漫长的,偶有痛苦,但有爱与关怀,总会让旅程缩短。
这个新年,不太冷。

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